Hey, Brent Richards.
Brent Richards, I repeated in my head. But when I looked up, he was gone.
Oh the torturous pain! My poor wounded heart! It felt like acid was being pumped through my veins. Alright, it didn’t feel that bad, but I did feel a stabbing sense of guilt. Here I had given my heart to a strange man, pledging my allegiance, loyalty, to this Brent Richards, which, essentially, was betraying my one true love, Clyde! My emotions had run away with another man. It was the classic case of Romeo, I was Romeo, first in love with Rosaline until I met another, Juliet. But ultimately, who would be my Juliet? Brent or Clyde? No, I still had to keep an open spot for Clyde, give him a chance! But what if Clyde didn’t want me? What if even after
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Why do I always fall back into my desperate, shameful tendencies? My disgraceful propensity for getting too excited! Why do—
Really? That would be great! When?
Shut the front door! Did he actually write that? He replied back, and the text practically sounds excited?! My head was swimming, in a fog, lighter than a cloud. My cheeks were prickling with heat. This was all too overwhelming. No, I was too young to feel all these emotions, too fragile to experience this powerful dopamine rush. Too numb to think clearly. I gotta get out of here, I needed fresh air, I was running a temperature of one thousand degrees!
“Okay, I want you all to get up,” Mrs. Williams said. Yes, yes, thank you, you divine African-American goddess! Thank you for letting me get up! “And I want you to go to the back lab tables and start the experiment, following the instructions I have explained, and for today you can choose any lab partner you want.”
Like bees, the whole classroom got up and began swarming around searching for a lab partner. In front of my face, I saw three different guys all talking at once, asking if I would be their lab partner. What was this world? What was this universe? Did the corset kill me and I went straight to heaven? But no, I didn’t want any of these junior boys, my heart was still pounding over Brent. I was still hot and flustered. Then two more guys darted toward
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I have to get out of this swirling vortex, guys all around. I smiled uneasily, but really I had to get out, too hot and bothered to even concentrate. It was too much, to all consuming!
I chose Ralph as my lab partner, not because he was the cutest, but because he was the smartest. And I needed the smartest person I could find because I sure did not listen to the instructions. It was good too because Ralph never once asked for my assistance, he did all the work. Normally that would frustrate me, but today I was grateful. He prattled away, talking about his impressive sciencey awards and his video game skills, but I hardly listened. Naturally, I was thinking about Brent, and Clyde, and a million other things, like how did I get in this position? How was I fortunate enough to meet the enchantress, be at the right place at the right time? Truthfully, I didn’t deserve it, there were way more deserving girls, nice girls like Ashley. Even girls like Tanaya, Tanaya was the first person to ever speak to me when I was a new student from Wisconsin. She didn’t judge me based on my looks or care that I have terrible social skills. She introduced me to her two friends, Renna and Ellie. Goodness, if I weren't so emotionally exhausted right now, I would probably start crying, but no, I think I used up all my tears when I first looked at my new Barbie reflection this