I have found myself in a position of such excruciating pain; from the frequent headaches to the anxiety attacks, life is difficult to manage. My head throbs every few days under the burden of these aches, and it makes me unable to think properly. My eye sight is diminishing as the months go by and nearly everything is a vague blur. It also doesn't help that my right arm shakes, making even writing sometimes a challenge. Onsets of anxiety are mundane, for it has become something I rather expect to happen than to hope it has finally stopped. “What hell must my body take me to?” I ask myself sometimes. I tried exercising to reduce my back pain, but nonetheless, the routine is moot. the pain is omnipresent and to a certain extent, I remind myself