After a few years, the aspiration came back and I needed to do more. However, what really pushed me to go for it again and try to start my own business was more of a necessity. Quitting, and being fired from a job is not a great record. I worked at a mortgage bank before, and took customers’ mortgage payments over the phone. I would answer any question they had about their mortgage accounts. I was great at that, but what I lacked was the ability to cross-sell; because I needed to believe in the cross-sell.
While at the mortgage company, I spoke to a woman in her late sixties or early seventies. Her mortgage was going up to an amount she could not afford, and she was on a fixed income. She had an escrow account, and her mortgage payments included
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For a senior who could not possibly go back out to work again this was outrageous to me. I wondered, “what if my mother had to endure that at an advanced age”. When I brought up the subject to my superiors, they suggested, “be empathic but not sympathetic”. Of course, I could not just quit the job because I had never quit a job before, I needed the money and I hated to give up on anything. Still my heart was not in it and soon my management notice. They let me go. For the first time, I felt lower than I ever had in my life. My next job I ended up just throwing in the towel. Being let go from my job was the worst experience in my life, so I decided to walk away from the next job. I disliked the feeling of that as well. Who wants to go through life feeling like a quitter?
While, failing at starting my business, fired from one job and walking away from another. My spirit was low, how could I ever achieve a dream when I couldn't make it doing what everyone else did. I should be grateful to have a job when so many others could not even find one. This is how a my negative self-berated