The conclusion of the book is Sensei turning into K. He starts to bury his sorrows in his books and restrict his emotions, even though that is what killed K. Sensei has everything K wanted, Shizu and the restrictions of being a monk. However, Sensei never wanted to be a monk, he only wanted Shizu, but he cannot have her. Sensei refuses to tell Shizu about his guilt, because he does not want her to become impure like him. A combination of his parents dying, his uncle taking advantage of him, betraying K, and causing his death made Sensei lose his innocence and he does not want Shizu to lose hers though second hand guilt. Sensei does not care who the narrator tells once Shizu is dead, but until she dies, he cannot tell anyone. He is a misanthrope, except for Shizu. …show more content…
When Sensei’s uncle betrayed him, he learned to distrust anyone who was close to him, K. Even though he loves Shizu, he does not want to tell her about how he “killed K” out of shame. However, he tells the narrator. Even though the narrator and Sensei are close, Sensei trusts the narrator enough to tell him his biggest secret. Sensei is the way he is because of his uncle and K, but he is also a product of growing up during the Meiji era. He grew up during a huge time of change in Japan, which shaped his personality (similarly to Holden from Catcher in The Rye who is depressed from growing up during huge time of change in the U.S. (WWII)). Sensei suddenly becoming nostalgic for the word Junshi shows a small aspect of the change affecting