The Bell Jar Interpretations of Esther’s True Feelings
While reading The Bell Jar, a semi-autobiographical novel written by Sylvia Plath, interpretations towards the main character, Esther, were made. Although Esther is diagnosed with depression, she does not seek help. Esther does not want a normal life. The life Esther lives is controlled by her mind, and her mind refuses to believe that there is happiness in the world. Esther does not renege on her beliefs and continues to believe that there is no good left in the world without any will to change that Everything seemed upsetting in Esther’s eyes. Esther had not seeked any help alone, which proves that she never wanted a normal life, but she needed one to survive instead. Death was beautiful
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Esther mentioned how she felt towards silence in chapter 2, as she said, “The silence depressed me.” (Plath, Sylvia. The Bell Jar). Esther found silence depressing, but it just seemed as if she found everything painful. Esther’s view of the world is sorrowful. Her words send a clear message to the audience, which was that Esther never asked for help independently, she waited for someone to try to save her. To prove that Esther did not seek help, she decided to commit suicide and overdose by hiding below her house so that no one would find her and save her. Furthermore, when Esther was found and rescued, she was not content. She did not want saving, she did not want to live a normal life, and she does not want to live at all. Esther says, “Death must be beautiful.” (Plath, Sylvia. The Bell Jar). She sees death as a beautiful thing therefore, she is blinded by the beauty of death, to see the beauty of life. She had failed in life, because she stopped trying, or she never tried at …show more content…
The first step to acceptance is to acknowledge what the problem is, but Esther implies that all of her problems would be solved by death. One thing Esther could have done to try to live a normal life, would be to avoid blame. She would constantly find different people or reasons to her depression. Habitually, when a person is diagnosed with depression, they feel isolated and lonely. This would imply that having a loved one siding by them, would be therapeutic. Esther though, decides to push everyone away. Statistically, 10-15% if people diagnosed with depression, end their lives. 70-80% of the people that survive depression, tend to inform others about their difficulties or challenges. According to the last chapter of The Bell Jar, Esther hid her emotions, and how she truly felt, which caused people to believe that she is happy, but afterwards, she decided to end her life. She hides those emotions due to her lack of importance she gives herself. All she wanted in the end, was to be found dead. Esther said, "It was a queer, sultry summer, the summer they electrocuted the Rosenbergs, and I didn't know what I was doing in New York." (Plath, Sylvia. The Bell Jar). Summer is usually a happy season, but she is too preoccupied by death to see so. When Esther described summer that way, we not only see summer as a death-oriented season, but we