I really enjoyed reading your post. When I was trying to decided what I wanted to go to school for I also wanted to be a trauma nurse, but I realized that was not my calling. I originally was going to school for radiology but after a semester I changed my major to criminal justice. I wanted a career that would provide excitement and something different everyday, but also allow me to help others. I wish you the best of luck toward either a trauma nurse or anesthetist, they will both take a lot of work to achieve, but in the end will be so rewarding knowing how many people you are