Why I did something sometimes doesn't pertain to my immediate surroundings. Whether it's disobeying or doing something extremely compassionate many times it relates to something that occurred years before. You see life wasn't easy for me as a child. There was no I love you's hugs and kisses like most kids normal life usually multiple times a day. Instead, I got abuse I hate you's and I wish you were dead. I could never trust anyone but myself and even myself I couldn't trust at times. Then getting put into foster care and constantly knowing I'm a dissapointment,a burden, just somebody's problem. Life as a whole was never easy for me. When you have to provide for yourself and your siblings all your life and then suddenly you're split up and aren't allowed to know anything about them it's horrific. Then I ran away only to have to provide for myself with no job.I never got to be a kid. Then getting put in juvie,seeing horrible things, being told you're going to turn out like your dad. Basically caused a lot of issues with trust, anger, honesty and letting myself be loved. …show more content…
I'm afraid people will leave me, hurt me, and honestly sometimes I'm scared they will love me. I'm scared of hurting people like others have hurt me. I'm scared of turning out like my dad. I'm scared of loving other people. I'm scared to forgive. I'm scared to apologize. I'm scared of a