I'm gay, and I have been for a while, long before I even knew what it was called. I wasn’t ok with the fact that I was gay at first, and I went through an extensive amount of self evaluation and self-shaming to be able to be comfortable with my sexual orientation. When I first came to the realization that I was gay I was not fond of the idea at all. I thought being gay was wrong and I tried everything in my power to change myself. I acted as if sexual preference was a choice, and with every chance I got I attempted to convince myself that who I am was wrong. The reason why took me a long time to realize that it was okay and completely ordinary to be a homosexual was because, even though I may come off as an extreme extrovert, i'm very much an introvert at heart. I come off as an …show more content…
This initially lead to me feeling very much deformity when I had first discovered that I was gay. As an emotional introvert I had an incredibly hard time referring to my friends and family on my dilemma, and therefore had to deal with accepting myself alone. Fortunately I wasn't forever stuck in a circle of peers that were degrading, and I was finally integrated into a friendlier and far more understanding community. This new community aided me in purifying my perception of being gay and helped me accept my natural sexual orientation. My newly discovered companions were accepting and allowed me to express myself entirely with no negative judgment whatsoever, they also helped spark an incredible increase in my self-confidence and implanted a new way of thinking as well. With this newfound confidence and positive reception of being gay I at last realized that sexual preference shouldn't matter, and should also have no affect on your actions or they way others think of