I was the happiest kid on earth. When arriving at the hospital, I jumped out of the car, and ran inside to see my family. My mom was back in a room, and I was not allowed to go back there. I sat in the lobby waiting for hours with my Grandma T, Grandma A, and Grandpa G. We found out she was going in to labor, waiting
My sisters on the other hand, they were a bit overwhelming; they did my makeup, which I didn’t understand why whenever I was about to go back into surgery, But Overall my main problem was my fear of becoming a mother and losing my childhood. I was scared, but at the same time I had the courage, I knew I could do it, if I put my all into my daughter I could be the best mom for her. I put commitment into raising my daughter to be a young lady, and I plan on keeping that going. The moment I saw her I knew I could do it, and all my worries and fear just went away, and there was left was pure happiness.
My mom had to be like a housewife, except she was just young. My mom had 4 other siblings and out of those 4, one of them was diagnosed with cancer and the other one had something else, when my mom was 16 her brother passed away and it was really hard for her because she loved him so much. At the age of 26 my parents both met, when they were 29 my dad proposed to her, they had tried so hard to have a child, but nothing really worked until God gave them a miracle and at the age of 32 she had my older sister. Around 33 years old, she had my other sister, but my mom’s sister the one that had cancer passed away and it was really hard for my mom. After my mom had my sister, she had 2 miscarriages at the age of 33 and 34.
When my mom had me when she was 17, it was the best two and a half years of my life. I was an only child, my grandparents first grandchild, and I was spoiled like crazy. Everything went smoothly until December 23rd. The day that my little brother was born. Once I finally got to go into the delivery room to see him, my dad put me onto the hospital bed and introduced me to my new brother, Braxden.
When my parents told me they were pregnant I was unsure and skeptical about the news. I thought having a another younger sibling would be nice but I also thought a lot of my parents attention would have to go to the baby leaving less time for me to do the things I want to do. As time went on i’ve grown onto the fact that we were
Anxious panic and anger were the only thoughts I could envision when my mom told me that we were moving. I had just accomplished getting comfortable in our new home and once again we were going to pack everything up; but this time she said we were moving to a different state. I numbly took a walk until I started crying and realized that I was determined to stay in the town I grew up in. Although my mother was hesitant, she allowed for me to live with my grandmother, who also lived in the same town as us. My decision to stay, allowed me to grow from a child still under their parent’s control to an independent being with the new stress and responsibility that normal adults have.
It was not an average day. Sure, the sky was overcast, the traffic on the way to school moved at a turtle’s pace, and my locker struggled to open, but today was the day that I had the privilege of going on a field trip to see a human cadaver. That morning, my classes seemed to drag on forever as I waited for third period when I would meet my teacher in the cafeteria along with the rest of my class and head outside to the bus stop. Finally, the time came.
These pains are unbearable! I want to give up! At that moment, I slapped myself hard and loud. How can I give up so easily?
Performing on stage in front of a live audience was a dream that I thought I would never realize. However, after spending years at the home of my neighbor Ms. Ellen, it became obvious that such a dream was well within my reach. When I was in third grade, I noticed that many of the older children in my neighborhood often visited the home of Ms. Ellen, a retired teacher. My mother was not comfortable with me spending a large amount of time in the company of older children; however, Ms. Ellen convinced her that my engagement with the children who visited her home would be fine, and she promised to watch over me. As a shy child Ms. Ellen brought out the best in me, encouraging me to pursue my dreams.
The most interesting part that I took away with the readings was the fact that there is a name for that super awkward time when the universe seems to be surrounding you, the frequency illusion. I had no idea that illusion was something that had been scientifically studied. I find that rather fascinating. Looking through the Wikipedia page, the first consequence, finance, struck a chord with me. My husband is currently attending classes at the Carlson School of Business Management at the University of Minnesota.
As I got into my car that August afternoon, wiping away a few rogue tears, I thought to myself, “I’ll see him in a few months and nothing will change”. Little did I know that when I wished my boyfriend off to college, that not only was he leaving, but a piece of my freedom was leaving with him. Senior year gave me new freedoms and responsibilities that I was eager to pursue and experience. As the year progressed, I got to experience the freedoms of being able to drive myself, lead three sports teams, and make the life-altering decision of where I will continue my education. These newfound freedoms aided the development of the person who I am today, and the person I aspire to be.
I always felt very mature for my age, but that never made me feel like an adult. The moment when I first felt like an adult was when I started my junior year in high school. I had this overwhelming feeling of being stressed out with grades, sports, work and I did not know how to balance everything, it was a lot. Instead, I started to try and enjoy the little things in life the best I could and doing this seemed to make everything a little easier. When I learned how to enjoy a moment and not think about anything else is when I feel I became an adult.
My Daughter’s Birth I have always been amazed at how life has unexpected moments. I can remember as if it was just yesterday, how scared I was of being 16 years old and pregnant. I never really wanted kids, especially at a very young age. I hate to say it, but I considered an abortion. Unfortunately, I couldn’t go through with it because I was too far along and financially I was unable to do it.
Pain is a feeling that is an inevitable life experience, no matter how young or old you may be it is something that you can never escape. Whether it be physical pain or mental pain it will follow you wherever you go. Many of the painful things that we have face we try to suppress, we think of it as something “unlucky” that happened to us, or blame ourselves or other people and try to move on with our lives. Those are four things that I am undeniably guilty of.
Later that morning, we arrived at Gordmans and paced through the store looking for bargains. I tried to shop, but was too distracted. Finding a chair, I sat and hoped my mom was doing okay. Finally my dad called and told Joy that my mom was rushed to the emergency room for a C-section. An overwhelming sense of panic ran through my body.
