Therapy process had been going well until three weeks ago, however, I think it was interrupted in some way due to a couple of reasons. First, we gathered with Kenosha, and then had a short one session and the last week did not have a change meet. Additionally, last weeks were quite busy midterm weeks, so that excessive workload negatively influenced on this process as well, at least for me. I am having difficulty in managing my school-related stress level time to time. In those times I experience severe headache, dizziness and some anxiety symptoms, and hardly focus on anything else other than my schoolwork. For example, I could barely remember what we talked about in session two weeks ago. The only thing I remember is that Michelle was challenging …show more content…
I can say that I internalized its negative effect in many ways. For instance, I believe that I am such a clumsy girl. In fact, it is okay, however, I also have a fear of making mistake among people (because I constantly do due to my ADD). This thinking pattern makes me uncomfortable among people, especially professional settings such as school, work, etc. I guess it does not severely impact on my functionality, but it is real. Consequently, there is a vicious cycle in my life that I could not break it. I make mistakes a lot due to my ADD, which reinforces my fear of making mistake. This fear leads me to focus on my inner world, and then I miss several things happening around me again. Essentially this circle illustrates one of difficulties that I experienced in the group process. Usually I plunge into my world and miss what people have said. This also might be a mild degree of Social anxiety. Last week, when you ask me my reaction about previous week, I said, “ I’m sorry I couldn’t focus on it. No reaction!” That made me sad actually, and I started thinking about it. So, how could we turn these types of clients’ attentions into “here and now”? I should make some research about it. And finally, -what a coincidence - we will do a mock group consisting of people with social anxiety, which make me extremely anxious. Back in time, one of my professors in Turkey said that therapists work on their