This semester I participated in a mindfulness practice, during this practice I mostly sat in silence on my bed in my room. During this time I would let my mind wander and let it go where it wanted. I brought up things I was worried about and things that have been bothering me, it also helped me realize how petty I was being when it came to certain aspects in my life. This experience at first seemed to be a waste of my time but as I progressed it seemed to help me in ways I never imagined. This practice helped me over come obstacles in my life that I have been suppressing for over a year now and it is about my ex. I am not as angry with him as I used to be but I am still hurt by the way he treated me and I always want to get back at him. Here …show more content…
I need to move on with my life because there are other guys out there who will treat me better and not break my heart the way he did. During this session I was very squirrelly because of beings asked out on a date and I was excited to try something new, but then my mind wander on to my ex and what he would think about it. I learned that I can be very petty and bitter when it comes to people who have hurt me and I know now I need to work on it. Another eye opening experience I had during my meditation period is when I realized that I am graduating in two …show more content…
I began to freak out because I feel like I have so much to do and so little time to do it. I am graduating in two weeks, and I have not found a full time job, I have no clue what I actually want to do with my life. I am now I panic mode because I feel like I am the only one on campus who does not know what she is doing with her life.
This experience not so gentle realization that I had experienced when it is compared to May 7ths meditation experience. This was a shot of the harsh reality I was facing and it scared me. This again was something I was trying to suppress but when you let your mind wander those things you are trying to suppress have a way of coming out in a sudden way that almost seems like too much at one time. This helped me see that I need to get my act together and to try and find a job that I will not hate and to try and get my life on the track in think it should be.
The next night did not seem to get much better, I was still tense about my future and what I might hold but rather than having thoughts about what my job was going to be I had thoughts about my finances and how I would make it in the