The organization that I was involved with this semester was an on campus student ministry called Chi Alpha. I chose this student organization as one of the groups I wanted to get more involved with because I knew Chi Alpha strived to give every UNI student an opportunity to respond to the gospel and become mature followers of Jesus. At the beginning of this semester I was aiming to build a stronger relationship with Jesus Christ. I wanted to develop this relationship so that I could find my purpose in life. Therefore, because this was a ministry with students like me aiming to mature in their relationship with God I knew that I would be able to strive in an impacting environment full of young followers of Christ. Amongst the beginning of the …show more content…
At the beginning of the semester I was spiritually and emotionally drained. I felt that I was so far away from God and I felt completely lost. I wasn't sure what I was doing in my life and I couldn't find my purpose in this world. I was suffering through depression thinking about dropping out because I just wanted to end my life. I was good at disguising my pain and suffering by acting as if I was completely fine. I was the type of person that people would look at and think she has it all together. However, I was so lost and looking for meaning in my life. Through Chi Alpha I gained a sense of hope, love, and meaning through the leaders and friends in the organization. For they helped me understand that God has a huge purpose in my life; through the sermons I was constantly feeling convicted which engendered and galvanized me to seek God with all my heart, mind, and soul through bible reading, daily devotions, and prayer. Chi Alpha leaders are truly individuals who I can confidently count on in anything for they were always there for me in my times of need. Constantly sending me encouraging messages that engendered me to believe God was speaking through them to