When I think of what has brought me on this journey to study Psychology at the University of Wisconsin, Whitewater, I need to go back to high school. Before I ever thought about Psychology or college, I was struggling through high school. Growing up I dealt and struggled with dyslexia, eczema, and self-esteem issues which caused me to be very quiet; always trying not to be in the center of attention. But, because of this, I was treated terribly by others, I was bullied and harassed by upperclassmen, especially during my freshman year. I was told that I was no good at anything and that I would never be able to do anything with my life. This was the first time that I believe that I dealt with depression, this was also the first time that …show more content…
So that’s why I originally went to college for biology and medicine. But after taking the classes I realized that I didn't enjoy the classes and that I had a hard time understanding them. During the same semester that I started this major, I also started dating a woman that attended a few of my classes. After about two weeks of dating, she told me that she dealt with clinical depression. I told her that it wouldn’t be a problem and I didn’t think it would be, until a month in to the relationship. I saw and experienced firsthand what this kind of intense depression could do to a person and I soon found it rubbing off on me. My grades started falling and I began to slip into a very dark place both mentally and emotionally. After I realized what was happening to me I decided I had to break up with her. But even after the break up I couldn’t help but to feel guilty that I couldn’t help her in someway. I then thought about all the other people in my life that I knew that struggled with depression. I thought about my friends in high school that had tried to kill themselves, and the ones that were successful. I thought that maybe, if there had been someone that they could have talked to, that things could have turned out differently. After a lot of soul searching, I decided that I was going to start studying psychology so that I could help people and make a difference in someone's