The Influence Of Body Image

Body image has been a topic in today's society that has been widely discussed. Body image takes place no matter the gender, race, or even age. Body image can influence a person's life as silly it may seem since usually, the people who are not experiencing this issue see it as nonexistent. But today I want to talk about how the yet “body image” has affected my life. And yes body image has been in my life since childhood, later transition to my teenage years, and it still affects me to this day.
The earliest memory I recall being worried about the way I looked I was only a 4-year old child, a kindergarten student. Now looking back at those memories it breaks my heart seeing how I worried about how I looked then, instead of being a careless four-year-old

Yes, puberty! All of us kids getting hormone changes as well as the body changes. Us girls we're getting our first bras, and we were all so happy. But within those awkward body changes, we had to attend physical education better known as P. E. I hated that class with such a passion. The things that were bothering me where that all of us girl had to get dressed and undressed in a locker room in front of all of each other. How horrifying does that sound? Especially since I didn't feel that prettiest or skinniest girl out there. I was having body image problems and “now they all had to see me?” I remember wearing a hoodie all year round in 7th and 8th grade no matter how hot the weather was that day. I hid my body and not just with the sweater I also wore a tank top under my any shirt I wore in order to when I changed in the locker rooms other girls wouldn't see my stomach. I felt so self-conscious about it. Then there was mile runs and sports. I was never the fastest runner. I was heavier than most so that made me so embarrassed by being almost always the last person running, and getting one of the worst mile times of the class. I remember thinking to myself “ if I were skinnier maybe I wouldn't be here, maybe I would be faster, and maybe I wouldn't be so embarrassed”. PE was in my life until my 10th grade in high school, when I thankfully passed this horrible thing called the “fitness

In today's society, there's an unspoken fact the only skinny girls get attention from boys and that was a fact that I was living throughout my whole life. Once High School ended, I start getting all this attention and it makes me confused. Maybe fat doesn't mean ugly? I know I should not be looking through meaning about getting attention, but always being ignored your whole life and now feeling sorta love feels crazy. Now I'm working on loving myself, maybe that way all my problems will get solved and eventually all loose ties come together. Society has to open people's minds and teach them that there's no Dreamland out there. And by dreamland, I mean that there's not only one type of body. Not having that one certain body shape it doesn't mean anything. People need to look deeper than that because people actually care about you, people love you no matter your body shape. Maybe now you're not getting the attention you always dreamed of and believed me, I struggled through that my whole entire life. And maybe now you're feeling unloved, but in reality, you've been wasting your time thinking so negatively about your situation that you're ignoring the fact that out there, there's someone who loves you, there's someone who thinks you're beautiful. So who cares about your weight, they don't care about the way you look. They don't care about those flaws that you only see, those flaws are beautiful in their