Utopian
As I came back from shopping, I found myself driving along the same road on which the accident took place, it always reminded me of what my life had become. I was nothing but a slave; I looked into the car mirror and saw a used torn rag staring back. After Frank became immobile, it felt like I lost the last remaining piece of me - caring for that sickly old dog had taken its toll, and it felt like every time we spoke he sucked the happiness right out of me, leaving me disconsolate and empty. The car behind me honked, the noise was thundering and almost ear splitting. It snapped me out of thought and I quickly turned into our driveway. As I made dinner and prepared everything
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As the time arrived for the coffin to be lowered, everybody looked towards me, I suppose, expecting me to be an emotional mess. But I looked down and covered my face, trying to hide the smile creeping over my lips.
After the funeral, I drove back home without speaking to anyone. When I entered the house, the emptiness of the rooms had suddenly struck me. I made my way towards the cupboard and pulled out some books, and, as I did so, a piece of paper fell out .The paper had a airplane drawn on it and as I looked closely, all it had written on it was ‘Destination Los Angeles’, with today’s date. My mind began to tick over and I rushed into my room, frantically opened my wardrobe, and in there were all of my suitcases. I was ready to leave.
I woke up in a cold, clammy sweat, and looked over to see Frank lying beside me. I was lost for words with a dry lump at the back of my throat, but managed to let out three lethargic words, ‘ Frank, wake up.’,
Frank inhaled sharply, growling ‘It’s five bloody AM, go back to sleep or get out
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As I drove to the airport, my mind wandered to what Frank’s reaction might be, a part of me fearing his ego would drive him to suicide. I prayed that he wouldn’t, and that he would eventually forgive me, because no matter how hard I would try, the imminence of my guild about leaving him at such a fragile point in his life was just that, imminent. But, for the first time, the chance to start a new life, follow my dreams and have my own real identity, seems within my reach, and no matter what, I intend to grab hold for dear