This is to ask you let me apologize. I'm not sure it is ok to do so here, but let me just at least write a sorry to you (and explanations and hopes, I know it might be just annoying but wished to share). I'm very sorry about last night and same past events which I think awful to everyone on the site. I'm sorry to scared you and made you feel sick. And for the past events. I'm so sorry to spoil you two's friendship gestures, which I couldn't understand your intents and belive them entirely, and since last time I never imagined that it could be allowed for me. And thank you again for your patienc and kindness you showed to me. What I have done in front of two of you were absolutely not what I wanted to do, and I would not do so if I know what would have happen. I realize it just leaves terrible feelings to all of us, and I believe no one is wanting it to happen. I coundn't sleep almost at all last night till now thinking about last night to the last few month. I'm such a horrble …show more content…
Sounds quite selfish, but I don't want to end up like this. I didn't want to do that and don't want to do that again. I want to renew this if you two also want to have memories related to this horrible creature as not such awful one. If you still remain patience for me, but not necesarily friendship you offered in the past, which if you don't want to see me anymore it's totally understandable though, it'd be great (re)play last night again in the alternative good way which could happen as a nice reunion, and actually happended in the past when we went to the sushi restaurant or actually went to we the people. I was wondering if I could just join you two's normal hang out, maybe I play a videogame so that I can be calmed down and relax and the aspect of me wanting to answer to your kindness, instead of being taken over by the impulsive emotional moduler of